Warning: Existential Crisis and Abundant Whining follow
I have a love-hate relationship with this blog. These days, it's more hate than love.
It's ridiculous to blame my busy life. We're all busy. Complaining about how busy you are is like humble bragging for those who lack creativity. The truth is, I don't blog because I don't feel like it. There are things I'd rather be doing - Like spending time with my kids. Spending time with my husband or friends. Binge watching Fringe on Netflix.
Blogging is more than just tapping out some half-baked thoughts on my laptop and sending them out into the interwebs. It's social. Commenting, commenting back, reading other blogs, commenting there - on and on. Then there are people who are really into it- They link up, submit postings to other sites, read and comment like champs.
I'm not an ambitious blogger. I have no dreams of becoming famous or rich from my blog. I couldn't even tell you how many people visit this site (I mean, I could if I checked. I just don't care enough to check).
And that's the real issue. I don't care enough. It's not a priority. And maybe it's all driven by my general misanthropic approach to social media and the world in general. I have a handful of blogs I visit on the regular, but I'm not going to spend all my time trying to read and comment just so people can follow my breadcrumbs back to this neglected space. What for?
I was never hardcore about this blog. I went through phases where I wondered what might happen if I tried. I'd give it a month. Maybe two. Traffic followed but my heart never did.
But I'm still here. Something keeps me hanging on. I don't know. Maybe it's nice, just having this here. A bookmark for my thoughts.
How do you know when to cash it in? When to keep going? When to just "take a break?"
And, just because I love this movie so damn much, here's another GIF for you:
If you came to this blog's funeral, I hope you would wear really ugly clothes.